Gaslighting & my journey to self-trust

Gaslighting, I know well.

I have felt the pain of having my truth denied many, many times, at the hands of the people who were supposed to love me the most.

I have been through the rollercoaster of self-questioning, doubting myself, wanting to believe that kind words mixed in with drastic conflicts with my truth were well meaning, coming from good intentions and just… a mistake.

It has taken Olympic-levels of dedication to learn to trust myself over the lies I have been faced with from people who saw me as inconsequential to their self-gratifying plans for the day…

… for me to come to internal clarity over right and wrong in a world that has all too often failed to paint a compassionate vision of that for me.

The sexual predator who used my body.

The boss who objectified me for his own entertainment.

The countless train-perverts who had no regard for my desire not to be touched.

The boss who confused my dedication at work for permission to grab my body for his personal satisfaction.

The boss who scorned me for taking time to eat and nourish my body during my work shift.

The industrial structures that denied my need for adequate sleep by prioritizing production and financial gains over the health of the people who build it.

The schools who told me to make better choices because what I actually desired wasn’t good enough.

The loved ones who asked me to stay quiet because they didn’t view taking the time to navigate what is important to me as a priority.

The health practitioners who flat out denied my experience.

The list of disrespect, disregard and ignorance to the truth of my basic needs, desires and rights goes on and on and on.

Over and over again, the message that my needs are not important has been a consistent narrative I have worked to break and rewrite every damn day since I decided to be *unavailable* for this bullsh*t in my life.

Deeply listening to and knowing how to identify my truth is a plight that has allowed me to build high levels of freedom, independent from the bullsh*t that has attempted to suggest that I don’t know what is true, that I should not trust myself and how I feel or that I should go along with other’s narratives because disrupting the accepted power dynamics with my truth is… inconvenient.

Confusion can become a comfort zone that makes everyone else feel placated enough to avoid conflict, or having to do the real work to take a stand for the truth at a high level of integrity and *implementation*.

I began by taking a stand for my truth on an internal level. Choosing to name and replace the narratives that were not in alignment.

Next I began to speak my truth. And share it.

Then I decided to take the actions that allowed for my truth to be realized in my day to day life… which has involved boundaries stronger than fire commitment as deep as the ocean

and a shiny new vocabulary

Taking a stand for my truth has often been very, very uncomfortable.

But as I build that muscle stronger and stronger… nothing feels better.

Nothing feels better than listening to, acknowledging, recognizing, celebrating, speaking, taking a stand for and taking ACTION on my truth.

Nothing feels better than choosing to have my own back, and to name the craziness when it presents itself to attempt to undermine me.

And I know, deep in my bones, that this world will not evolve into one of compassion for all people until all people become unwavering in their commitment to their truth, their needs and desires.

It is up to us to speak them out, and take a stand for them, and become *unavailable* for abusive narratives to remain unchallenged.

I know that my story has immense power to open doors for others who desire what I want and have been through what I have been through.

I know that sharing my truth is my right and my privilege and I am choosing to use it to light a new path for women who are *DONE* with settling for the outrageous bullsh*t we have endured.

And the beauty of it all is that by naming and sharing my authentic experience, I am able to give the gift of illumination and transformation to others who are on the same journey and looking to supercharge and live out that truth that’s burning inside of them.

And that is the magic of sharing our stories – when I show up for, live out and share my vision, I bushwhack a new path, and everyone who decides to come along for the adventure is able to navigate the way with less obstruction.

I know that you know that too.

And I know that you’re so ready to unleash the truth of your next level vision for your life and for the world you feel an undying passion for taking a stand to create.

And you’re feeling called to share your story and to help others in the process. And you know that creating the clarity and conviction required to move mountains is the next adventure that’s calling you.

My private mentorship is the space to dive deep into your truth and your desires for the impact you’re being called to make through your work, and to craft your truth into a story that magnetises the right people to you for collaborations that elevate both you and your clients in health, wealth, freedom and creativity to live a fully expressed life of authenticity, integrity and thriving success – on your own unique terms.

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