My journey with money has been one filled with so so much pain.
What I didn’t realize was that my relationship with money was triggering feelings of helplessness that had been stored in my body from the sexual trauma I experienced.
The accounting, the organization, the asking for what I needed… these aspects of money were triggering to the point that my body and nervous system did everything in its power to avoid avoid avoid.
And my financial security suffered because of my unrelenting resistance to taking action to balance these parts of my life.
But my desire for more lead me to show up for the work, and my body had no choice but to start shifting. It was my determination to heal my relationship with money that brought the memories of the sexual trauma up to the surface. This pattern had to leave to make space for the courage to do this hard thing that my body thought was dangerous.
Though I have overcome many parts of my resistance to the challenges I have faced with money, to this day, it is still something I am processing and healing and supporting myself through as I continue to show up for my next level of wealth.
It has required that I process deep pain that I had avoided feeling at all cost.
It has required that I grieve the impact this pattern of helplessness has caused in my life.
It has required that I detach my perceptions of myself and my capabilities from body sensations on a moment to moment basis and take action anyway.
It has required that I deeply root into the belief that, with courage and support, I can overcome any obstacle to become the person who creates all the freedom she desires.
It has required that I call in support to keep moving towards my goals, even when every cell of my body is screaming to run and hide.
It has required that I unquestioningly own and speak my truth to myself and others.
My journey with money has not been easy.
Healing from trauma is not easy.
But it is really f***ing fun when the results flow in on the other side of the work.
Did you grab your spot in the wealth expansion masterclass next week? I’ll be going deeper into this. It’s free.